I almost blew my fuse just now... I mean, JUST NOW! An unexpected vulgar sms was sent to me which totally made me went "Wtf?!!" I was about to tell him to drop dead instantly he received my reply in sms until I suddenly decided to think using my brains instead of my fuming heart.
I am clearly not at fault and yet I replied "Oh- Sorry?". What about an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth principle? It might clearly satisfies one's ego initially and temporarily but then what about the aftermath? Cold war will wage for unknown duration, friendships may severe, backstabbing will be rampant, and in worse case scenario - when the mind cannot control the body anymore, physical attacks will ensue.
I've been denying myself of my own hot-headedness. Yeah... Sure... I've my share of nasty incidents where I blew my lid. But then I do not blame myself. I blamed those who had tested my patience. "You knew that I have a short fuse, then why do you still want to provoke me?!!!! You are only digging your own grave, BASTARD!!!!". In truth, the provoker dug the grave for both of us. Fine, if You want the trouble, if You want the pain so much, if you are asking for it, then why don't you jump into the incinerator? Why Don't you just gauge your eyes out and pour salted lead into the hollow sockets? Don't drag me into your SHIT!!! You whimsical fcuktard!!
I am kinda tired of having to put up with people's shit. My patience is running out. They say patience is virtue. But can virtue solves virtually everything? Can virtue flush the SHIT away? No! From what I know, the SHITS just piled up higher and higher. Which is why the use of force is necessary to flush away the annoying SHITS.
Annoyance is another thing. What annoys people? Repeated undesirable disturbances, behaviors, hindrance and harrassing. I personally despise LC people. Even if they do not LC in front of me, I will still like to punch the daylight out of them. I couldn't stand the sight of LC ppl even if they LC in front of other victims. They are like warts. Annoying. Hard to remove and yet they still rear their ugly heads around. Annoyance is a hazard to one's temper. U can see how a Mom screamed at the top of her lungs to her naughty kids. Or a lecturer shooting mercilessly at his mentee during the VIVA presentation due to the own stupid student's incompetence. Does this make the Mom or the lecturer a bad person for blowing their fuse? One can say that they are at fault too, for their inability to control their subjects (kids and students) but is it fair? One need to be responsible for their own actions.
"SO, only those who are prepared to be KILLEd can KiLL."
Comprehend that yourself, if you are competent enough.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Sucré rêve
“Seat D8. Finally I’ve found it” I thought to myself. But an uncle has already being seated there.
“Looking for seat 8 yea boy? This is my seat, D8. Are you sure you’re looking for the correct one?” he offered to help.
“Err… Yeah. That’s what printed on this ticket…” I began to get confused.
“Oh, let me see that for a while boy”
I handed him my ticket.
“Hmm… Indeed. Your seat is indeed D8 but that is for Hall 7. This is Hall 3. You are inside the wrong hall boy… Haha” he smiled as he handed my ticket back to me.
“Huh? Oh my. My apologies, uncle. Thanks” as I hurried out to find the correct hall. What a blunder!
As I hurried along the corridor to look for the correct movie hall, I heard somebody called out my last name. It’s a girl’s voice. Sounded familiar too but I must have been mistaken.
“Hey”
I felt a pat on my shoulder and turned around. It was her!
“Why didn’t you respond? I called out your name just now” she asked.
“Well, err… I thought the last name was for another person. You see, there’s a lot of people with the last name C_Yang” as I spotted my senior who is also having the same last name as me.
“Hi, C_Yang” I called out.
“Yo” he called out back as he joined back his circle of friends nearby.
“Alright” she rolled her eyes. Somewhat unconvinced. “So, which hall will you be in?”
“Hall 7. Something funny happened just now”
“Hmm? Funny?”
I could see her interested eyes in my story. Her beady eyes are crystal clear behind her purple framed spectacles. I am stunned for a while, for I haven’t observed a girl this close before. She has cute bangs on her forehead, accompanied by short-cut hair, almost reaching shoulder-length. Her lips were pouty and moist. As if she had really used a lip balm. She didn’t have any make-up on and yet her face is still looking radiant.
“Err… hello?”
I was snapped out. That admission ticket in my hand was counting sheep with me.
“Huh? Oh. I was in Hall 3 by mistake just now. Pretty stupid huh? Luckily there’s a kind uncle cleared me out of my confusion”
“Eh? I was in Hall 3 by mistake too. Haha… What a coincidence. I am going to Hall 7 too!”
“Wow. Just perfect. Well, let’s get going together now. The movie is about to start”
As we entered the hall and looked for our seats, I found out that she had her seat next to mine! What a coincidence! Well, this could mean something couldn’t it? I didn’t bother to ask her if she is having a company along for the movie. For now it is just the two of us together, side by side, watching the same movie. Halfway through the movie, I felt some weight on my shoulder. I turned around slowly and I can see that she’s leaning against my shoulder. Her dreamy eyes are still fixed on to the silver screen. I didn’t utter a word nor did she. There’s just silence between us and yet the warmth, the wonderful feelings reverberated throughout my whole body. The tacit feelings in the atmosphere. I just wanted this moment to last for as long as it can.
She turned her face towards me. Her eyes looked as if they are saying something. I leaned closer. Closer and closer so that my lips can reach hers. My heart was pounding heavily.
Just when I was about to kiss her, she suddenly apologized “I am sorry. But… you are too late now…”
“Huh? What do you mean?”
“You are too late now. I already have a boyfriend” she said this softly, her eyes were looking away from mine. It was perfectly understandable. You wouldn’t stab a person by looking at their eyes right? I couldn’t utter another word. My mind was numb. Numb from the shock.
“But… we can still be friends right?” I took great effort to pronounce every single word of the sentence.
“Em. Yeah” she nodded and smiled. It was sincere.
“Okay, then, now hold out your hand” I requested.
She did so without asking. I took hers quickly. She was quite surprised. I took her hand close to my chest for a brief moment, while taking a deep breath, then raising it up until it was at my chin level.
“Emm… What do you think you are doing?”
“Relax. This is what I call a pat-on-the-back-of-the-head” as I directed her hand with mine to pat the back of my head. Pacifying myself. She didn’t resist either and smiled all the way. Her eyes were mellow now…………
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Haha… Well, what do you think? Relax. It was just a dream. XD. I woke up with a great feeling after that magnificent dream and quickly typed it down on my word processor before the memory fades away. There are some things which are not answered up to my expectations but then, the answer is graciously acceptable by the moment. After all, this could mean something isn’t it?
“Looking for seat 8 yea boy? This is my seat, D8. Are you sure you’re looking for the correct one?” he offered to help.
“Err… Yeah. That’s what printed on this ticket…” I began to get confused.
“Oh, let me see that for a while boy”
I handed him my ticket.
“Hmm… Indeed. Your seat is indeed D8 but that is for Hall 7. This is Hall 3. You are inside the wrong hall boy… Haha” he smiled as he handed my ticket back to me.
“Huh? Oh my. My apologies, uncle. Thanks” as I hurried out to find the correct hall. What a blunder!
As I hurried along the corridor to look for the correct movie hall, I heard somebody called out my last name. It’s a girl’s voice. Sounded familiar too but I must have been mistaken.
“Hey”
I felt a pat on my shoulder and turned around. It was her!
“Why didn’t you respond? I called out your name just now” she asked.
“Well, err… I thought the last name was for another person. You see, there’s a lot of people with the last name C_Yang” as I spotted my senior who is also having the same last name as me.
“Hi, C_Yang” I called out.
“Yo” he called out back as he joined back his circle of friends nearby.
“Alright” she rolled her eyes. Somewhat unconvinced. “So, which hall will you be in?”
“Hall 7. Something funny happened just now”
“Hmm? Funny?”
I could see her interested eyes in my story. Her beady eyes are crystal clear behind her purple framed spectacles. I am stunned for a while, for I haven’t observed a girl this close before. She has cute bangs on her forehead, accompanied by short-cut hair, almost reaching shoulder-length. Her lips were pouty and moist. As if she had really used a lip balm. She didn’t have any make-up on and yet her face is still looking radiant.
“Err… hello?”
I was snapped out. That admission ticket in my hand was counting sheep with me.
“Huh? Oh. I was in Hall 3 by mistake just now. Pretty stupid huh? Luckily there’s a kind uncle cleared me out of my confusion”
“Eh? I was in Hall 3 by mistake too. Haha… What a coincidence. I am going to Hall 7 too!”
“Wow. Just perfect. Well, let’s get going together now. The movie is about to start”
As we entered the hall and looked for our seats, I found out that she had her seat next to mine! What a coincidence! Well, this could mean something couldn’t it? I didn’t bother to ask her if she is having a company along for the movie. For now it is just the two of us together, side by side, watching the same movie. Halfway through the movie, I felt some weight on my shoulder. I turned around slowly and I can see that she’s leaning against my shoulder. Her dreamy eyes are still fixed on to the silver screen. I didn’t utter a word nor did she. There’s just silence between us and yet the warmth, the wonderful feelings reverberated throughout my whole body. The tacit feelings in the atmosphere. I just wanted this moment to last for as long as it can.
She turned her face towards me. Her eyes looked as if they are saying something. I leaned closer. Closer and closer so that my lips can reach hers. My heart was pounding heavily.
Just when I was about to kiss her, she suddenly apologized “I am sorry. But… you are too late now…”
“Huh? What do you mean?”
“You are too late now. I already have a boyfriend” she said this softly, her eyes were looking away from mine. It was perfectly understandable. You wouldn’t stab a person by looking at their eyes right? I couldn’t utter another word. My mind was numb. Numb from the shock.
“But… we can still be friends right?” I took great effort to pronounce every single word of the sentence.
“Em. Yeah” she nodded and smiled. It was sincere.
“Okay, then, now hold out your hand” I requested.
She did so without asking. I took hers quickly. She was quite surprised. I took her hand close to my chest for a brief moment, while taking a deep breath, then raising it up until it was at my chin level.
“Emm… What do you think you are doing?”
“Relax. This is what I call a pat-on-the-back-of-the-head” as I directed her hand with mine to pat the back of my head. Pacifying myself. She didn’t resist either and smiled all the way. Her eyes were mellow now…………
____________________________________________________________________
Haha… Well, what do you think? Relax. It was just a dream. XD. I woke up with a great feeling after that magnificent dream and quickly typed it down on my word processor before the memory fades away. There are some things which are not answered up to my expectations but then, the answer is graciously acceptable by the moment. After all, this could mean something isn’t it?
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